Life in a magic world

11.01.2011 . A normal day in the cold winter of January. The day was exciting for us as the educational tour of MTA was to take place from this day. The scheduled departure of the train was at 9.15 pm from Varanasi Cant. Railway station. Every one was asked to assemble at 8 pm at the entrance of the station. One after another everyone turned up. Devendra, the tour coordinator was actively running around to check all students have turned up, esp. to find the defaulters who didn’t make complete payment. The display board in the station showed that train is running late by 4 hours. The estimated time of arrival is now 12. 15 am on 12 Jan. The night is entering its deep embrace with chilling cold wave. Veerubaba and Ranju found a place that is suitable to keep ourselves settled down in the MCO area in the first floor. The chitchat of the youngis invited the attention of the MCO offcer, and he didn’t forget us to warn that we would be kicked out of the place if we wont shut our mouth An...

Each day of the year, seems to be a new day, but The very first day of hte new year seems to be pretty new and Fresh... Its a matter of fact that how each one sees their life.. Every day brings a mix up of happiness and tensions, but some days bring you more happiness than pains. The day you forget next day waits with much stress Every moment is a test, Each one before you reflects you something, That stays bak in your memory forever, even if it takes away from your memory, will come to your sense when you feel it ... Another year of .... tests, pleasure and pains...

The days are colder in every sense, Mist and smog cover the sky, as the same cover it in the mind too. dont know how to speak to thos people who are difficult in all sense to live with and o understand me too. My life seems undergoing a tough time again, loosing the patience with lot of anxities, it hooks my heart and gives me pain, never ending and never lasting too. waiting for the days to pass, to releive from the boredom of life, the day I can fly around and cut-off all the bonds of life....

Dont know, am right .. But life gives me a glimpse of different phases of love.. that came out as the outcome of love .. when you search some one for love, you wont find the same one you look for, when you get someone who loves you, then you have no choice other than accepting it... it make you excited to see, to talk or to spare time with your beloved, you find it intersting to share gifts and your goldent moments it make you sick in the absence of your beloved one you wait for a call or a msge to you awake from bed, the true love force you to forgive and forget make you accept good or bad side of your lover, you may wish the whoe life to spend with your sweet heart But what happens when things wont work out, when there is a serious misunderstanding between you and your closeone hatred and fight may give you you unhappy life, you may wonder that love can curse you as well. the thoughts of a hurt partner can make you more sick that time it ...

Don’t know how I woke up so early that day. Perhaps the call of Dr. Pravin (hereafeter Pravinji) made me to open my eyes and check the time. Its 7.15 am. Too early to say bye to bed; at 7.30 a.m. At least it was too early for me ! The rays of morning sun peep through the windows. Temptations to see the morning beauty of Kanasar build pressure in mind. Loud voice of Capt. P.K.Singh (Hereafter Capt. Sir) and Pravinji from the woods. Tracing them through the half opened eyes and slipping steps I am out of the guest house now. What these people are doing yaar so early? Capt. Sir is holding Praveenji, whereas he is trying to have a full snap of the thick forest cover in front of our guest house. It strike my photographic sense, and thought I should also move out to capture something left over. Deodar trees add shades with the mist that hold the mountains as if the embrace of love between desperate lovers. The rays of sun come as a villain to separate them….. No word is sufficient her...

Dont know what to write but only ine thought comes again and again life push me the boundaries to decide the survival or to the end

It is an odd thinking ... No idea, howmany agree when you feel alone, something make you depressed, or you feel totally lost.. when none is there to help you out there is only one person can help you... GOD the supreme power to help you in troubles, one and only power to give you direction the spirit and soul that can lead you to the ultimate truth and meaning of life ....

Yes today I understand the meaning of Paranoid. I am truly a paranoid.. I lost the control on my thoughts. I just want to disappear form this ruthless world I am an idiot to think so shabbily. An emotional outburst, which is unable to tolerate, going out of my control as bit of words.. its toomuch that I ve enjoed everything in this short span of time.. I never wanted to be in this dirty par to of life, wish I could dissolve at an early moment.. hate .. only hate .. on all.. let me just say it... toomuch of frusturation ... no idea, why, whatever it is , it is better to stop here...

Several thoughts strike the mind its the tiwst of the fate or the decision to live a  fair life. several faces brought admirations... sometimes turned up to adorations... It all happens in the corner of the mind, All of a sudden it appears, lives for a short time... and disappear in a slow motion, its difficult when thoughts take you back where the memorable moments still exist, in the corner of your memory the pain of lose is more than that the pleasure of gain, but when the fate goes against the choice, there is nothing other than suffer it in silence. the pain of heart, never comes as a sound of cry, neither there to weep as tears, its al about the game of life, where you lose continously one side, wipe your tears alone in the darkness laugh like a winner in public place but the inner mind says, never you can come out of the space, where you live in the coffin of your thoughts ...

How beautiful is when, there is somone to support you when you are at the time of crisis or gripped with problems of life. When you were a child, just remember the way your mom, took care of you when you fall down each time she felt pain at her heartand came to hold you close to her chest, she took away your tears, and consoled you the same situations arise in life at many ocaassions, but when there is no one to hear you, you get confused in the cross roads with loads of difficulties and pain just think of someone who know you well come close to you and say 'I am with you' and hold your hand take away your tears, offer you a word of consolation offer you a ray of hope, to live the life and thnik of future is it a dream or reality but it happend with me tonight, that forced me to write these lines, that make me awake, and that make me alive.  

This is a simple expression of the helpless condition of the dependence of the mind on body............! Thoughts are raining in the inner mind, helpless to explain, the way it I feel to do so, just passing time by looking at the clouded sky, with an aimless mind and a lazy body.... my friend told me this evening, 'trees in the campus appear in a new look, after a long awaited shower forewhich they looked for all these days....' its true that when you get something after a long wait, it really brings you pleasing/soothing effect, which you wish to experience the whole life... but what happends to someone , who is not even have the right to dream, when life seems to be tough from every corner as if, it test your endurance to survive where feelings continue to hurt your life, life is a prolonged journey of deeds that make you sick the more you think of it one of its kind none love to have it again, atleast it is the case...

The following is not exactly the title says.. It is rather simple expression of up beats of mind... Thoughts strike like sparks, shake the whole body at a time.. Eyes become only an ornament of the body, which gives a big picture of infinity. heart wooes for the presence of the desired one , war between real life and dreams, life just resembles a bubble, it looks very lovely from outside, but anytime it may break up and disappear in to silence.. unable to reach the pace of the world, passing each day and night with frantic speed , to find a shore for the journey of life, forgetting the golden moments that passed, recovering those from the lost world is a painful task than just thinking of it thoughts design a web of memories, that put me in a pool of sadness. every night is an offer a world that takes me to an undisturbed world of sleep  but the journey stops in the half way, as dreams turn in to nightmares, to end...

A disturbing music wake me up at 6 am My friend who was in the near bed made an lam at 6, and couldn’t close my eyes even tried for another sleep. Continued to lie down in the bed till 6.30. am. Then woke up and moved to fresh up. Taken bath, got ready by 7 to go for a small walk to search a cup of tea. The campus was so beautiful and my eyes were in search of a tea shop. The canteen in the campus is yet to open. Moved to the otherside where I heard about a Dhaba. The morning breeze made me active enough to walk fast. Found a small dhaba where the person is about to prepare tea. I was relieved seeing this and there were two –three people who were also looking like waiting for tea. There was a posture placed in the wall and it was showing Happy Ed/Rakhi festival, Mr. xxxx, candidate for Grama Pradhan. Looking at the posture, someone was telling Ka likha hai… Rakshabandhan Hogailba. Then someone told that BJP is going to have campaign on Ram Mandir at Ayodya. The comment on this was i...

It is too early to wake up at 6 for me. Today body seems like the bed more than any day . The force of mind pressurises to wake up and get ready. The bus leaves the campus at 8 am, but if I amn’t preparing then I won’t reach the place on time. Reached proctor office(main Campus) at 7.45 a.m. Bus to RGSC start from here. Could see the bus parked in front of the proctor office. There is no rush today? But surprisingly almost all seats are booked by teachers by keeping their bag in and fortunately got a seat in the middle of the bus. Its 5 mns to 8 and all seats are filled up. Teaching staff and non teaching staff are ready for the days work to RGSC. A young lady came in the last minute. There is no seat available by this time. At first, I thought I should give her my seat. But next moment, mind told me to wait as the lady seats are occupied by gents and decided let the gents give her seat. Interestingly none give her a seat there and she moved back, where there was a seat a...

Today is a Great Day to honour our teachers. I still remember my good old days when I was a student. I was not aware of the greatness of Teachers Day until I started my career in teaching.. It is a great reward for any teacher when students turn out to be successful human beings in the life. This is a small tribute to my teachers who taught me to learn the lesson of life My Parents, specifically my father, who wanted his son to be educated. His efforts and vision led me and my brother to take up formal education . Pre School Aashan: My faded meories dates back to the first days of learning where my tiny forfinger was used to write in white sand the letters in Malayalam. I still remeber my copy book in which all alphabets, Arabic numbers and words like Thara, Para, Pana etc. The first person who brought me in to the world of letters. School Eliamma Teacher A great human being who has shown light to thousands of students who studied in Kappiset Govt. U.P.School. Le...

I met several people in life..(professional life and personal life) among them a few came to my life as friends, mentors, guides and role models every one was given a place in my heart but, some of them lasted few days, some of them few weeks and some of them ended in months and many lasted for years... Some brought me love, but many brought me worries but none brought me problems, or I was never wise to understand it in my life.... all these may be my psychological problems which brings all the issues... I never met a person in my life who found to be really happy everyone had a problem that makes them painful, or give them sad moments I couldnot find in my life ....... a person who love every one. every had problems , which make them to hate, friends relatives or people live around. My friends are angry with me, because I couldnt do anything for them.... or what way they wish that I may behave... some one needed my presence  as a solve...

Hi. What is the most painful time in your life? Dont' know what would be your reply... But have you felt real loneliness when people around you dont understand you... Yes. It can happen... The state of mind decide your physical and mental functioning.... the moment you are sick, you feel uncomfortable and it will reflect in your day to day life... but when it happens to your emotional side .. ?  its truly pathetic.... There are lot of people around us... whom we like, whom we love, or whom we hate. but what matters alot is human mind is so vibrant to silly things... which is difficult to understand and difficult to accept or tolerate... For a moment, you may find these people are friends forever... Dont believe it, the moment you fail to deliver what they expect they will just run away from you.... they shower you with blames they hate you as you have done some heinous crimes in the earth just imagine everyone around you only eyes in benefits fro...