Paranoid...!

Yes today I understand the meaning of Paranoid.
I am truly a paranoid..
I lost the control on my thoughts.
I just want to disappear form this ruthless world
I am an idiot to think so shabbily.
An emotional outburst, which is unable to tolerate,
going out of my control as bit of words..
its toomuch that I ve enjoed everything in this short span of time..
I never wanted to be in this dirty par to of life,
wish I could dissolve at an early moment..
hate .. only hate .. on all..
let me just say it...
toomuch of frusturation ...
no idea, why,
whatever it is , it is better to stop here...