Its My Life.....

It is another day of horrible tests..... God only knows how I survive.... I am a failure in life.... failed to understand emotions... tears and grief chase me everywhere... Praying all Gods to give me courage.. not to let me fall own and crawl.. to give strength to stand in my feet ... Your are my strength and you are my courage... Your are the only one I can trust.... Failed to learn the lessons of life... failed to learn the art of survival.. failed to answer at the moment of challenges...

Why everything goes wrong around me... Am I severly punished out of my deeds....? But in heart., I always think not to harm even an ant.... Its difficult now to suffer the pain.... I am tired of the tests.... Is this way life will be ahead of me.... My nights become sleepless..... my heart feels as if I there are throns inside it.... my eyes only see nightmares, which make me wakeup in the day and night.. there is no energy left in the leg to move a single step.... why my life is like this ... to show me sufferings around me... or to bear the pain of the surrounding of others.. tired of everything.. nothing to earn, or nothing more to learn.... enough is enough ..... there is only darkness at the end of the tunnel....