Life in a magic world

There are many unanswered questions in life? The confusion increases when we think of it seriously, just living is always an option, but what happens when you want to keep your identity you have to lose many things... As usual, every day life brings lot of doubts, which are never ever going to be cleared.... which direction, I should move no specific answer other than a sleepless night

Today is another pass over day.. where the Lord Jesus attended his last supper ..... Here I am alone in my room where my parents & brother are far away... sitting at home they are thinking of me... I am completely lost from my past life ... This time no celebrations at all no thoughts on traditions, no thoughts on visiting a church.... yes, this is my 9th continuous year, where I am alone in my home..... ............................................. I am the saviour of my life.. ......if my deeds are good, that will result in my life.... Let me live in this world of solitude...............

how sad the  being a human being? to tolerate selfishness and rudeness... everyday life teaches many things in life.. people are becoming more greedy and adamant every one only advantages and forgets humility and for what purpose they are here? money is the only thing which brings you happiness? then life is miserable? that also you earn through a dirty way.. the teacher always praises himself as a young turk and act as the saviour of the earth..... it happened with me today... learnt a lesson how horrible human nature is? change your words all the time,  justify the wrong deeds .... do not admit the mistake ........ ......................................... a word comes in to mind.... whatever you earn/achieve in this earth..... if you lose your soul..... what will be the end result....... after a tough day ....of work , game in the court, having a drink, my fingers shiver with anger and sorrow where I am forced to see all this .......back to my half filled glasss.....

                                    Look at my table.. Filled with books and loose sheets Many of them are useless or dusty As if I used it weeks before Wish to hear who are my room mates? None other than Spider and lizard Every corner it made decent nets                 To trap its prey… The ceiling is not different Water leakage make, the design a modern art or miniature paintings Fan is also pretty good in condition, Cries in every lap when it works, As if it has lot of complaints against me Clothes spread all over the room, Mattress is also gone out of use As it borne my weight for years Even the laptop also hesitates to Open up its display My room is also warmer than usual Perhaps it also has stopped tolerating me

Life is a game.. which plays with emotions.. emotions take you for a ride, chance of winning is fairly bad, when your fate is not unavourable to you, what make you happy  can make you sad too ... pleasure and pain is momentous, but pleasure goes fast,  while pain last long can you match with sadness and happiness sadness put you down in life,  though happiness inspire you for time being... but my question is clear? if your life is full of sadness.....! even GOD cant save me, ha... ha... ha....

Sorrows take you to the depth of disappointment... sometimes think of why a life like this... we say it is Karma.... is it really true... Why should this sufferings in the life.. a short life or a long life.. do you really feel the pleasure of living.. My answer is no... its a race of many things in the child hood to be number one in class in the college to become a topper in the job to perform well and get the star personal life never compromises with you... atleast in my life.. the sum of life is frustration you have to take out to some one grief and sorrow that you borrow from some one.... or pain and misery all through the life... what you say... its my life .. wish as you live... pain ya pleasure... enjoy the life becoz it is short days will go.. as you count he seconds of your clock count down started... awaits you a world of ......?

When the sun disappears in the horizon, and shades of darkness grip the earth, my mind is filled with scary thoughts, eyes are tired and legs are shaky Thoughts, thoughts, unending thoughts.. graze my mind and puts my body down.. pass each moment with great difficulty, shocking dreams drag me all through the night fighting with the mysteries of life I am tired of living in this hell around waiting for the sunlight to come waiting for the day to start